My Cat Will Die at 5pm

Two hours from now my old cat will be dead. My younger cat can smell his illness, and stays away.

I have three hours left to say goodbye to him.  And I'm crying now for all the losses in my life I never cried for.  For the girlfriends that left me. For loneliness I felt in my 20's. For depression that has wasted my life and limited my choices.  I never acknowledged those losses.

My cat has never known an unkindness.  I am happy for the life he has had with me.